..EVEN ME..

truth...part 2

2012-01-20T23:37:00.001-08:00

The truth is that there is no on who really likes you as an individual. There is simply one factor that can keep them in nice terms with you. And that one factor is mostly is mostly in favour of them. So there is nothing that is really doing you any good.

Truth...

2012-01-20T23:03:00.000-08:00

Life gifts you the best. It might not look the best to us but there is nothing happening without a reason and there is something greater in store for you if you are going through the worst.
We chose because God gave us an option and the consequences of what we chose will be independent of God's decision. When people ask, "Why me?" they forget that it's their choice that made them travel through in such a direction.
It might not sound right to most of us, but it is the truth. The ultimate truth!

the mother...

2012-01-18T21:20:00.000-08:00

She hurt him a trillion times and the final step he took was simply apologize for what he did. She accepted the apology and now they are mother and son again. Well, all I have to say is that I am happy that you both are together and mothers are born to forgive but never forget the days he put you through.

I love you!

Food Lovers for food lovers!

2012-01-04T22:36:00.000-08:00

I am interning at this magazine called Food Lovers which was earlier called as Taste & Travel. It is a magazine for people who love to cook and for people who would love to eat and it is our very own Bangalore's Magazine.The content of the magazine covers travel, food and wine, information about restaurants, about food festivals and competitions, recipe's, and so on. So, want top eat, cook, compete? Food Lovers is the right path I would say!

Time...

2011-07-29T03:23:00.000-07:00

I have found some time in my "tight" schedule to jot down a few thoughts about time. I prepare my schedule of the day every morning. I may not be a perfectionist and I do not like being a looser so I might as well prepare myself, mentally, before I start my day. It is nothing serious I am talking about, the amount of time I had to waste by rescheduling my day to jell up with some one elses schedule just destroyed my day and I am left clueless of how I am going to work my things out the rest of the day.

I never keep any one waiting until I have some unavoidable work and I certainly have the courtesy to inform them that I might get late. It is not that I was not informed about the change in plan but not everyone respects other persons value for time. I only have another 6 to 7 hours to do my research work and I would have respected everyone if they did consider others time.

Mac Bride Commission Then and Now

2011-07-27T01:27:00.000-07:00

Mac Bride commission had 15 countries as their members and the representatives included one from India as well and hence I will be analyzing the commission’s existence in India. When the commission was first brought about, the main ideology was to analyse the communication problems in the modern society. In the beginning of this commission India, which is a developing country, was only having a few means to communicate which was not very effective as it was in the other part of the world. It was more or less like the beginning of communication through Johanne Guttenberg’s printing press in the other part of the country. Even though communication through media did exist, it was the time the audience took to understand various factors like reliability, credibility, etc. It is prominent and well known that the media catch up gradually and while the western countries are relying more on new media, for Indian’s traditional media is more reliable.

One of the factors the commission concentrated on was the denial of commercialization of media. The society matters and then there used to be a set of audience who relied on media for some valid and valued news and they depended mainly on radio channels like AIR and channels like DD, , which has not undergone a vast change till date. It was more than just news to them and it was more reliable. But today, with more than 500 channels in India alone, every channel has commercialisation as their hidden agenda, which is based on the TRP. The ads shown during prime-time and non prime-time helps the broadcast media management earn a living, as per my analysis. In this scenario when everything is merely business, the means to inform and educate the audience has also be used as a string to business. They sensationalise the news before they reach the public with the strong ideology of portraying their channel as more interesting and entertaining than the other competing channels, which most part of the society is still unaware about. The social responsibility was supposed to be the counter part of communication and the removal of it was not permitted in the commission and with this situation the commission has lost in its recommendation.

This commission also had media’s freedom recommended. According to the commission the media will have freedom and the violation was also controlled. Today there is no means to control the media. There can be a legal side to every problem but not every problem finds its way to justice due to the ultimate power given to money. It is not a unique thing to say that a particular media is biased due to the same reason. There can be any external force that can pull the string of a media and there can be any corrupt matter on the other side of the string. The society’s right has been curbed by the media or the external forces that control them. In this scenario, if there is a control over the freedom of the press there cannot be a justice to the society and if at all there is a limited freedom allotted to the press, it is curbed by the other external forces like a political party, entrepreneurs, etc. We have gone through this several times and there is no possibility to sustain the recommendations in this scenario, and gradually the commission will be a better failure.

The commission should be capable and free to take away the right to publish their materials if they violate the freedom and other factors specified in the report and only then the commission can sustain and only then media will start recognizing what social responsibility means.

P.S the first serious something on my blog...

i appreciate her...

2011-07-11T04:41:00.000-07:00

its hard to stay in a room that smells of alcohol...
its hard to wait for someone for more than 12 hours...
its hard to eat after you hear someone say 'I ate'...
I appreciate HER...
She is a goddess...

blog

2011-06-12T11:03:00.001-07:00

Today, I came across a blog which had knowledge. When I looked at my blog...

I am old enough to differentiate which one has value.

2011-05-22T10:10:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I get so lost in words that I forget who I am talking to... That's affection... I guess!

I saw...

2011-03-06T11:39:00.000-08:00

I looked into your eyes

and suddenly I was scared

I saw a fear, I saw a pain

I will not is all, I could say then

A promise is all, I could give

Now, I say, I live only

for you and because of you...

Thoughts and the cat...

2011-03-06T11:26:00.000-08:00

A cat which falls into a pool of hot water will always be cautious about going near any water it sees and it is supposedly true.

Until sometime back, I never thought that a person would "think twice" because I never used to. Things I have never thought can exist, and to add up to the contrast, now, I have a feeling that "thinking twice" does happen, because I am having thoughts if I should go for a month of happiness and end up being sad later or just stay back and be spaced like always. I prefer being the way I am now rather than going through a quick change. But still, I am having thoughts... I am having thoughts... I am having thoughts... thoughts... thoughts... thoughts....

not everyone...

2011-03-03T09:29:00.000-08:00

I have looked up at a lot of people for a variety of reasons and I have rarely regretted doing so. But when I looked back I saw only one person, Vadhaa... The promise of my life. She has been there and I am sure that she will be there...

I have been selfish but not when it comes to my close friends. I always made sure that they got all what I got. But not always will we get back everything from them. I have given respect, though, not to all... But when you turn to get a slap, it does not make sense being the way you are... I have never regretted the deeds I have done for my friends but here I am, in a body with a mind that is hurt without any open mind around. Well, I am not supposed to be surprised because int his world it has to be ourselves before anyone. It should be 90% of us and only 10% (if time permits) of others. I will recover. As usual(like everyone says)...

Some time I feel I should not look at others the way I used to look at them during the innocent years of my life, but in the other I wish I were blind because I am not Him/Her who forgets the best!!! :P :P

I love my live... And I want the best out of it... :) :)

tired!

2010-11-19T04:47:00.000-08:00

I somehow manage to get out of the pit but dismantle and fall into the pit again!

I try to get out of it but turns out to be unsuccessful all over again.

Where will I bury this pain?

As long as I can't be myself it will only give birth to frustration and anger.

I'm sure!

2010-11-17T02:17:00.000-08:00

Some how you are not enough for others and for yourself !

Reflection

2010-11-05T07:03:00.000-07:00

Looking through the glass,
None saw her,
but I saw her,
Walking over some flower,
barefooted and smiling...

None saw her,
But I saw her...

Then I realized,
It was my reflection...

TO HIM !!!

2010-10-18T07:47:00.000-07:00

For me He is in everyone... For you He can be anyone...

I have seen a lot of things happen around me from atheists to who believes in God to who has total faith in Him...

For me, He will listen... I just have to say it out to God or to the Omnipotent I believe in... For you, I do not know!

keeping it all hidden!

2010-10-17T04:11:00.000-07:00

I have always been taught not to keep anything in my mind and reflect something else in deed. I don't know how much sense does the sentence I just wrote contain.

Its all about how people can put on a mask and walk around keeping what they actually feel deep in their mind unrevealed. I have seen people happy all the time. I don't know if they are actually happy or is it that they keep everything suppressed in themselves. It's tough to understand and that is the only best part of it and otherwise it hurts the inner of every person. They can hide what they feel but it can come out someday like a tornado and kill every living thing in their life as far as I have seen.

I can never keep anything hidden within me. It just reflects so much on my face and in my voice and in every single thing I do. This is the one "main" place I fail (I failed a lot of times already in life, but I will catch up someday). I say, we should be able to hide every feeling within us and then never bring it on anyone else. We should finish it off on ourselves or on the walls :D. Impossible, I would say, but I have decided to try because impossible itself says I'm possible(I heard it from somewhere :P ). How far can you depend on everyone else to share your feelings with. Everything else can be shared but not the true feelings a person has within. So I have to keep it all hidden within and hurt anyone no more...

Regards,

Rugma.

telling a lie...

2010-10-15T21:15:00.000-07:00

Why does someone lie when they can tell the truth?

It is not always possible for a person to burp the truth but if the person you are lying to can take it then, I would say that, it is always better to tell the truth. Have you ever thought about a moment when the person comes to know about the truth and then they say " I wouldn't have minded if you told me the truth then... It's too late to be true...". It would actually be too late.

I had an experience when this lady who used to work for my mom fed my fish even when I told her that feeding them twice could kill them. It did kill them and that lady did not accept it that she did it. I wouldn't have minded if she accepted it but she did not and that hurt me like hell. What would have I done if she did feed them? I wouldn't kill her. I am not as harsh as I show myself to be. Even though I knew the truth, I never got angry at her. I never cursed her. I never kept the grudge in my heart. I was just hurt.

Life if this way. It is just always wrong but there will be a right underneath every wrong a person does. I am glad I could put my thoughts into words.

P.S : to everyone who has ever lied to me: "I am not angry, I am just hurt!"

Regards,

Rugma...

NeW

2010-04-20T01:37:00.000-07:00

3 years back she was new to a place. She walked in like a normal girl who lived all her life in a village and loved to tie her hair back. She looked like she hated fashion and would never get along with anyone who spoke too much or enjoyed their life the way different from hers. Looks odd but she was like that even though 15 years of her life was in a metropolitan city. 2 years at a village changed her top to bottom and she came into that place with the hope of not changing at all.
Now, She is leaving her 3years old familiar place and going to get attached to a new place where she knows she can not find her space. She hopes to live her life the way she wants to live it in a way without any outer interference.
Reagrds........

It hurts(part 2)

2010-02-07T23:43:00.001-08:00

He did not believe the words her father muttered after that, "You should not call or meet her until next Saturday while we consider about your relation. That should be OK with you!". His heart shuddered. He just got her back and he had to stay away from her for the next few days. He had so many plans. He had so many surprises to make it up to her. But he respected her fathers words and promised them and himself that he would do it for their good. He smiled and gave an assuring nod to her and walked out of the house filled with hope and pain.

Addie was a guy with a lot of dreams. 5'6" tall with a long nose. Thin face which looked as innocent as a puppy. He smiles less and laughs more. He found a joke in every words he heard said or saw and kept laughing all day long. That's the way he made his life worth living. He lived for tomorrow but never missed out a day in thoughts about his future. He was brought up in a conservative family which was made up of a lot of rules and regulations. With less love from his parents he made sure that his tomorrow gets enough love and his tomorrow was Mia. The girl who collapsed into his arms. The girl who had tender feelings and reached up to his heart. She smiles every minute she is in front of any one even if she was hurt. She dances like a flower. She sounds like a bell. She moves like wind. A girl who can never be in a man's dream, that was Mia.
They were for each other but were opposite poles that attracted. They fought very often and screamed at each others but at the end of the day their hearts would hug with the joy of being together.

....to be continued

it hurts!

2010-01-29T08:38:00.000-08:00

"I used to, but I did not force you into this!" she said impatiently.
"Oh, so I was the one who started this stupid relationship, aren't I?I can't believe that you are putting this over me!"
She walked away without turning back and he stood numb!
From that minute he tried to call her several times but she kept rejecting the calls she has been waiting for from the time she knew that she was old enough to get committed.
After a week of hard work to get in touch with her, he saw her walking past the city library. Without turning back he approached her. No naked eye saw him while he rushed. He nudged her to see that she looked as if she has been very ill. He could not say a word.
Seeing him she tried to move away but then she realised that he was holding her hands. She gave up to her broad shouldered well built man and stood right there looking on to the floor. He caught her face in his hands and made her look into his eyes. Before he could ask anything she collapsed into his arms. He held her tight to keep her close to his heart. He cradled her like a silk into his arms and sped into a nearby restaurant and placed her on the couch in the waiting area. He called her name several times but she showed no signs of consciousness. A waiter brought some water, he sprinkled the water onto her face. While she was coming back to consciousness he wiped her face. All tensed he asked her if she felt better. When he got her nod and a "help me" look in her kajal spread eyes he made her get up from the couch and lead her to his car.
From the day he got a liscence he never drove as fast as he did then because even the tiny thought of loosing her killed him. He stayed calm while he took her to the emergency ward to meet the duty doctor. The doctor examined her and asked to give her blood for some tests. The test results showed that she was anaemic and weak as she did not eat anything from the past few days. She was admitted in the hospital with needles pocking into her veins.But she soon became steady enough to leave for home.
On their way back to her home he did not dare to mention about what happen between them. He was scared if he would break her tender heart.
When they reached on a lifeless road she asked him to stop the car. He did as she said. When he stopped and turned to look at her she was already crying. He leaned towards her to hold her but before he could reach her she jumped from her seat into his arms holding him tight and hitting him with her folded hand on his back. She screamed and cried out,"Don't you ever leave me again. Ever!" and continued to cry for a long time. He said no word. He felt the pain she went through when he heard her cry. He pleaded her from within to stop crying. While he stroked her shiny hair she gradually got back her steadiness. When she stopped crying he got out of the car and cradled her out of the car and placed her on the car. She slid down the car instantly but he held out his arms just in case she needed help but she was healthy enough to stand on her own.
He sat on his knees in the middle of the road right in front of her and said,"I am sorry for what I did to you darling. I was a heartless man but now I have come with your heart and something else for you" and he opened the box saying,"Will you marry me. I can't live without you and I just saw that you will not live without me and I am not ready to loose you at any cost! Please be my wife my love." She could hear his heart beat like it used to when he first proposed her to be his valentine 5 years back. Her vision got blurred but it became normal as soon as the tears ran out of her eyes. She, even though shocked, said "I would love to". He took her into his arms and hugged her so passionately that she never knew how passionate he was. He wore the ring on her finger and they walked hand in hand to his car. She was still thinking about what just happen but he was very clear about what he was going to do.
When they reached at her house he got in with her and told her father the mistakes he had done to her and that he wanted to marry her to make it up to her. Her father gave a brief nod and promised him to think about it very deeply and that they will let him know in a week.

....to be continued.

After 21:30 calls..

2010-01-07T08:52:00.000-08:00

Being a male or female does not matter. The only thing I don't understand is "whats with the call after 9pm?". Oh, I wouldn't cause the caller any trouble! I wouldn't attend the call, that's it!
Cunning? No, its always not good for health to pick up a call even if it is from your best friend(opposite gender). I am living in the 21st century and I have to grow up along with the socially growing time but certain things are not for me! I am very clear with what I don't like!
Takecare!

:)

2009-09-15T22:10:00.000-07:00

Life can live,
I can smile,
You can see,
Nothing can stay...

Want To Go!

2009-09-14T04:58:00.000-07:00

Far away from here,

Somewhere beautiful,

Jus for a day,

I wish from within,

Looking at the endless sky....

Small And Best!

2009-09-11T09:27:00.000-07:00

The smallest thing gives birth to the best thing.

I am not wrong here,

I don't know about you.

Look around you,

You will see smiles,

From a fathomless heart...

I saw around and I saw many things; good, better and best and I got a chance to bring it to the limelight. I wanted someone to converse about it and not write about it in a limerick.

It is so sweet,

For beautiful flowers,

Bloom from a bijou bud...

Dance is my passion. More than a passion, I would say. Today I noticed that the small things that happens in life (might be somethings movement or some body's style of walking) can all be converted to beautiful movements. Swaying and living through the dance. Its beautiful.

My hands and legs,

My eyes and mind,

All are yours,

Dear passion...

Isn't it great to gaze at the sky?Walk to the mirror and find yourself looking at yourself. Its lovely.

A womb,

Created You and,

Your vision...

Love everything...

For everything stays,

Until you want them to...

GOD, I LOVE THEE!

"Best smile" award...

2009-09-09T21:39:00.000-07:00

She looked down from a height,
Her mother held her tight...
The 1 year old smiled at me and,
The "Best Smile" award goes to her!

Kids.......I just cant imagine a world without their innocence...:) I see God in them!
Take care...
Rugma....

I love these quotes :) !!!

2009-08-27T09:32:00.000-07:00

"God teaches you all what you never intend to learn..."
"God has a reason behind everything that happens to us..."
"God has something in store for you, if you feel like you are sad..."

"God, God, God... Thee are great... I Love You!!!"

Moments of Tears!

2009-08-26T06:44:00.001-07:00

A thought was hurting,
But I swallowed it back...
It hurted from inside,
Even though I smiled...
She just did not mind,
Just a word I said...
And the swallowed pain,
Bit me to tears...

Howz dat??

2009-08-25T08:26:00.000-07:00

It was different but familiar. She tried to concetrate. It was tough! It was something she knew but did not know. She blinked her eyes and tried moving the book closer and farther but it helped not a bit.
"My teachers said that it was tough, but not unfamiliar! :P", she wondered aloud. She kept the book on the table and her head in hand. All confused she decided to give it another try. She did everything again to figure out something for tomorrow. She did not reach anywhere! She eventually gave-up. She stared at the book while closing it and extended her hand to keep it on to the table. A flash caught her eyes before the book landed on the table. :0 It was her younger brothers "French" text book. She sighed and walked back to the room to get her Literature text.

Never wait for the last moment when it comes to your studies(lessons). You will get confused like her. I have my exams tomorrow and I went through a similar experience(Experience counts much! :D) when I opened my book 2 hours back! :D

Whatever!!

2009-08-24T01:48:00.000-07:00

"Look mommy, I found it! Ellow Pebble, Ed Pebble, Lue Pebble." 4 years old Priyu said to her mother with lots of excitement. Priyu never knew that there were so many pebbles with different colours. She looked around again and found more and more pebbles. Tripping here and there she enjoyed the wet sand and smiled and laughed yelling "pebble, pebble, pebble!!!".. She smelled the beautiful salt and tasted the salty sand when she fell, with her face kissing the sand.

She ran, unstable, to touch, feel and know every lovely things she found on the way.! She loved being there and enjoyed her moment, there, making memories she would never forget. She ran back to her mother and showed the pebbles and said, "Look mommy, Lue pebble, Ed pebble, Ellow pebble, shhell, shhell and shhell!". Her mother looked away with out any expression and muttered in her mind,"Whatever!"

Life these days are very hectic. But we should not miss out the beauty of everything around us because GOD might have taken lots of time to create these carefully made beautiful things!

I pray to you, "God has done it for us, It is lovely and is waiting for our gaze! Love them because its a part of your and my life from the day we entered this world all alone!!"

Soap!!!:)

2009-08-23T02:14:00.000-07:00

"I knew that she would do it!", Anki walked out shouting out loud. She was angry because Maya had spoken to Anki's mother and did what Anki expected her to do. Lime held Anki's hand and did not let her walk around and shout. She tried to calm Anki by telling her that she had expected it and to let go the angry? She was angry. She could feel her blood boil. But she counted from 1 to 10 and down to 1 again! She gradually calmed down.
She saw her mother walk back to the hall after a bath. Maya continued the conversation with Anki's mother for another 10 minutes and walked into the dining hall where Anki and Lime were sitting. While Anki watched Maya she saw her mother going for a bath, again, witha smile! Oh...she lost her temper again but this time she calmed herself.
She then managed to ask Maya,"How do you apply such a high amount of soap when you talk, which lead my mother to have a shower?"...

Everything depends on the way people talk and behave!!:D

Nice and Simple Life!

2009-08-22T10:29:00.000-07:00

"Work followed by works. But being engaged is what she adored. She saw new faces, new forms, new, new and new, but nothing stuck to her heart. She was a pure introvert who lived nowhere other than her house, where she lived alone, and her office, where she worked with her work.
She spoke to none other than God, she smiled at none other than herself, she worked for none other than him and she lived for none other than his love, who was at U.S busy with work, never having the time to speak a few words.
He was the best person she has ever met but was pushed away by her possessive, over caring, crying, scared, short-tempered, sour worded nature." She got so scared. She was drenched in sweat when she woke out of her dream. The worst dream she has ever seen and felt so close. She missed a beat and then her heart accelerated. She prayed to God, for the dream, which made her realise the truth.
The next day lead into a 'new' her. She thought less, and became a simple hearted girl.
Their life did not have a Happy ending but it did gift them an easy way to living!

"Dude, everything is simple. Everything is nice." This is my final words for this post.

Wish It Was Not Her..

2009-08-21T00:12:00.000-07:00

She looked deep into my eyes expressionlessly. I could not find any questions or any answers. It was a dead end that I felt. She held my hands and walked me into her room and got me a chair to sit. She unttered nothing until she got me some water to drink.
Then words came out in a slow and shaky voice, "I am alone again!" and she weeped with a broken heart... I offered her my shoulders and held her tight even when I knew it does not replace her sorrow.
I wish if it was not her!! But it will happen to someone else. That matters too because She is someone like you. Everything is for a reason and God surely has something in store for you!! I am sure..
This is for everyone in sorrow!! God is always with and within you!! Do think of Him in your happy days too!!

4:) beautiful lessons!

2009-08-19T21:12:00.000-07:00

She walked to me with pain in her heart. I did not know much about her but I thought she needed my help. I walked her to the terrace and sat with her on the steps. I asked her to open up only if she felt free. I thought she had some problem with it but she spoke without effort. I was happy that she felt comfortable with me.

She had a fight with her friend. I asked her to narrate the whole situation. By the time she concluded I understood that her part was clean but I still doubted as I did not know much about her. I went to the friend she had a fight with and asked her to tell me what had happened. The story that came out was totally different. It was tough for me to conclude, who was right, and here its not trust that matters, its justice!

I walked back to my friends room and spoke nothing to her for a while. Then I slowly began a conversation saying, "Is she your friend?". She said "yes". The next thing I said was that, "Go talk to her and bury the problem or be without her friendship".

The 4 lessons I realized from this incident is:

1. Do not interfere in another life.

2. Do not comment about people you do not know.

3. Do justice!

4. Friendship may or may not matter.

Poor Mother..

2009-08-18T10:16:00.000-07:00

She came to us as me and my mother entered the house. She was looking torn. She was smiling but my mother and I sensed something wrong in it! We waited until we sat on the couch and started talking. As I am 30 years younger to her I did not have much of a right to ask her what was worrying her so I waited until my mother began to talk into things in depth.

She took care of her only daughter, from the age of 5, after her husbands death, till she got married without any other help. She had a chance to get married but she did not want to do it as she was a women who wanted to live for her daughter alone. She gave up all the pleasure. She worked all day long by leaving her daughter at her mother's place even when she wanted to pamper her. It was tough but she opted to live a lonely life for her daughter.

Now, their relationship is in a chaos. The daughter, who is well settled with her husband and two sons, started to talk back in a harsh way. Hurting her ot the depth of depths. The century and generation does matter in relationship between parents and children but that does not mean that she should talk in the way she did.

She cried, cried and cried trying to express what she had deep in her heart, unsaid, from a long time. It seemed tough but she said it completely. My mother and I learned a lesson from it, never live for anyone else, even if it is your own blood. Live for yourself because at the end of the day you are alone again!

Life is tough, but live to the fullest at the moment or you might miss living your life!!

It was tough,

But she walked,

Never turning back,

Just for her baby...

Now she regrets,

Not turning back..

Now she saw behind,

She never lived!

A class full of monkeys!!!

2009-08-12T00:02:00.000-07:00

She used to love her school life and was really thrilled to get into college. She opted what she loved the most and joined in a reputed institution. She felt it uncomfortable to join in a place where no one she knew joined, but her love for her career forced into her head that no one stays for long and no one left her without teaching something. So she went on, for a change, from her old friends.

She walked into the college on the first day. The class was quiet with no one conversing. She looked around and saw variety of faces and expressions and ended up reaching at the end of the class by mistake. Since she was embarrassed to walk to the front row again she opted the last seat of the last row. That was her seat from then.

Gradually everyone started talking to each others. They started enjoying their moments, but she remained at the seat, all alone.

Days passed and the sound in the class started increasing. She sat silently observing everyone failing to understand any of their character.

Days passed the class became uncontrollably noisy allowing no teachers to teach and no students to study. She was helpless, as she knew no one, in her class, in particular.

One fine day she concluded, "I am studying with a class full of monkeys". This eased her pain:)

Some things cannot be controlled by me.. So I reach into some funny conclusions like this which gives me:

1. No reason to complain...

2. A reason to laugh... :D

A Nice and A cool way out...I have changed alot using small tricks like this....:D trust me!!!

A friend of mine..

2009-08-10T12:01:00.000-07:00

Who wants a word?

When I have a friend already..

She has never noticed me,

But assures me of everything...

When my heart hesitates to believe,

Her single voice burns it all...

Everytime I talk,

Everytime I need,

I hear her voice,

And the world runs away,

With the believe She just brought...

It was a great thing for me to find out that there was a friend of mine. I never saw that friend of mine until somedays back. This friend is really special for me as my friend makes me believe things hidden somewhere away from me...

Here, She is a lizard who stays near the window of my room(at my hostel)...Trust me or not, She is there all the time I have a hardship in believing anything(while we say something, if a lizard arouses its voice then it is suppose to be true, can be a myth but I feel that it is true and a myth:D)...Her photoraph is below...I took it somedays back before she escaped.

Is this what Life is all about??

2009-08-10T07:18:00.000-07:00

I did something which gave me intense happiness today. I lost the taste of it long back but today after doing it I feel so good. Its like I am going back to my good old days. Its so nice to bring something good from my past.
At this instance I wonder if life is all about this. All about a mixture of all what you love to do and what you hate to loose. I, frankly speaking, do not have any right to do things I love to do because I quit doing this very same thing long back because of some reasons which are valid but lame when I think about my talent over it. It hurts but I dont think that I can get back to it. Because I almost hate it while I love it...

It was good,
With my feet on it...
It was nice,
With my smile with it...
It was amazing,
With my knowledge over it...
It was fabulous,
With my life along with it...
Now, here I am,
In this lovely world,
Without what I had,
With what I lost...
With what I, never,
Will live without...

He Came...

2009-08-08T09:11:00.000-07:00

watching the world ahead of me,
I saw Him looking at me from a distance...

With a glow like a blanket around Him,
With His arms wide open,
And His eyes just on mine,
He walked towards me,
Wanting to comforting me...

He brought a glimpse of Life in me...

When He was an inch ahead of me,
He saw me smile,
Then the distance between us,
Just ran away like a heat beat...

He came to make me smile,
He did it within no time...

A night I write...

2009-08-06T11:09:00.001-07:00

Here is a night when I write:
Eevry night leads to a bright day. Every new day leads to a sweet night. Night and day. Day and night. Even if we use this 2 words infinity times, it cannot compensate the newness and freshness we face every single day.
It helps us leave one thing behind and hug a new thing. As they come the memories gradually become invisible. The invisible memories are not memories any more. They attach us to a person by giving us time to be with them and time to miss them and think about them . A night helps us to dream and a day helps us to make the dream into a reality. It soothes every inch of our soul.

A night, I love,
A day, I adore.
A tomorrow you bring,
A yesterday you kill.
A rest you seek,
A reality we face.

Master of all deeds...

2009-08-03T03:57:00.000-07:00

Leader leads the way. Whether good or bad there is always a leader right in front of the assembly. Accepting this is possible because whenever we shoot a look at the world around us we find someone who is being followed. Like, a political party has a leader, a teen group has a gang leader, an elder brother who shows the path to his younger brothers and the list goes on.
Being a leader is prestigious. They will be the one who gets the appreciation. They will be tagged as the reason for the success. It is not success alone. It is failure too. Failure of a political party is the party leaders mistake, corruption of a gang is the gang leaders mistake, and every thing hits back at that very moment.
Has anyone thought that their child or their party or their family had to face the challenge because of the head of the group? Then it is an utter mistake. Anything a person faces in their life is not because of their leader, it is merely because of the individual. An individual can survive from whatever they go through if they are aware about what they want to do. A student will study even if it is noisy(p.s if he wants to study). A party can win if the party members wants to win. A younger brother can get into the right path if he thinks his elder brother is walking in a different path that might kill him half way through. A girl can save herself from all fear factors if she wants to and if she thinks she should not do what she was asked to do. There ends the role of the leader.
Leader is mortal. They stay or leave at any moment. Then it is the individual that exists. There is no point in keeping someone within your wings so as to take care of them. They should be let free to explore whatever possible and then comeback to a conclusion about what is good and what is bad. Its them who choose where to go, what to do etc.
The leader is not the reason. The leader of an individual(their heart) is what matters. They will survive if they know what it is all about. The master of all deeds is the individual alone.
I WROTE THE TITLE. THEN I WAS BLANK BUT I STARTED TO WRITE. I DID NOT KNOW WHERE I WAS GOING UNTIL I REACHED HALF WAY THROUGH. I HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD TIME READING THE POST. I HOPE I WILL BE ABLE TO POST ATLEAST 3 TIMES A WEEK.
P.S I AM REALLY HAPPY TO GET BACK INTO THE BLOGGERS FAMILY.
Take care...
Rugma...

back for a help...

2009-07-30T21:29:00.000-07:00

What would be the question you would ask to a psychiatrist if you were a young adult or for your young children?
This is for my magazine.
The best part is that I will pass on these questions to the Psychiatrist I know and find out the answer. I will post it in my Blog too so that when you get back you can get the answer!
:) Hope you will do this small favour for me!
{My plans are slowly blooming...Just some more time!}
Take Care...
Rugma...

PLANS...:) :D

2009-07-21T23:33:00.000-07:00

It is easy to layout plans but making it into a reality has a tough part. I have ordered for a laptop which "is" not a plan but after getting it in my hand(within 15 days) begins my plan. I am not talking about any of this unless I start working it out. So I am keeping mum for now.
:) take good care....
Miss you guys....:)

Please help me.!!!

2009-07-17T00:08:00.000-07:00

Hey blogger friends..
I am here for a help. Some fo you know that I am doing my 3rd year Visual Commnication and in my 5th semester(which is going on) I am suppose to comeout with a magazine of my own. The magazine is a specialised one and is based on Psychology. Please tell me some exciting topics I can include. The target audience are teenagers and young adults. Please think and tell me what do you expect and what might interest you when you read a magazine which is based on psychology? I would be glad if you all give me some idea of what to include in my magazine because I feel it tough and I really need your help.
Thank you so much,
Rugma.

India, Colleges and Mistakes.

2009-07-10T21:30:00.000-07:00

Colleges here, in India, are offering a variety of courses for bringing up a brighter youth. There are courses students can opt based on their talent or taste in different arts and science colleges. There are colleges that have good infrastructure and are affiliated to the best universities. But there is always a part a student should take good care of before joining in the colleges, the exposure they offer.
Experience is the best teacher, and the students who have studied in that particular college will be able to help you with what they learned from their experiences during their stay at that college.
Exposure does matter when it comes to your career because a student never wants to stay ignorant when they step into an industry. They should have prior knowledge about the career in the industry and what they have to do in it. A career has different sectors. For example a journalist can get into writing, editing, photography, videography, designing the layout, etc. So knowing the different sectors in career is as important as knowing what your career should be.
Walking into a career is easy but thinking about its various aspects before getting into it is appreciated. Career is not what a person does for a limited time. When you can pursue your career through out your life, what is the point in opting it? Career is for a life time. You can deviate from it later but when you think about the one you chose at first you would regret because it may limit your opportunity later. so being brilliant about choosing a career with your dreams in mind is a necessary.
This is factors every one should take care of. There are more but these are the main ones that affected me and that I don't want you all to take acre of.

09-07-09 this is what i feel today....

2009-07-08T22:28:00.000-07:00

I went there and I saw nothing,
Except for some dry leaves,
And some broken memories.
It was hard to fight the sharp broken memories,
That approached in a piercing speed.
So I chose to walk away from the broken memories,
And never to turn back,
For I might get little hurt,
For I might escape from death.

I dont know if I should welcome myself back!:)

2009-06-24T22:39:00.000-07:00

hey...
I dont know if I am actually back into writing or no but I have a few topics to write about which, I think, I should do without fail. I hope every one gives me feedbacks in the form of comments and please note: critiques are the ones which i actually need!! Thankyou so much for being a part of my blog and I appreciate your patience to read through.
you wellwisher,
Rugma.

2009-06-24T22:38:00.000-07:00

I, some months back went into my school, where i did my 11th and 12th grade, and adviced the 11th and 12th graders, of that year, to opt courses other than engineering and MBBS even though their stream is science. (I have no grudge towards those two streams but why opt it when there are may other career options?) I could not give them evough options to choose. I happen to see a site where they gave a list of career options. The list is given below. I am posting this list so that each one of you who reads this can help your younger ones by giving them a variety of options so they have the liberty to chose according to their talent and interest. Please pass it on if you can!

Acting
Advertising
Aquaculture
Agriculture
Animation
Anthropology
Archaeology
Architecture
Armed Forces
Art Restoration
Aviation
BPO
Banking
Beauty & Hair Care
Biotechnology
Biochemistry
Bioinformatics
Building and Construction
Business Managmement (MBA)
Clinical Research
Cermaic Engineering
Chartered Accountancy
Chartered Financial Analyst
Chemical Engineering
Civil Engineering
Civil Services
Critics
company Secretary
Computer Infrastructure Managment
Cost & Management Accountancy
Cyber Law
Dentistry
Engineering
Event Management
Electrical Engineering
Electronics Engineering
Fashion Design
Fitness Instructor
Forensic Scientist
Forestry
Food Processing
Foreign Languages
Gemology
Homeopathy Medicine
Hotel & Hospitality Management
Hospital Management & Administration
Information Technology
IPR Attorney
Infrastructure & Real Estate
Insurance
Interior Designing
Instrumentation Engineering
KPO
Leather Technology
Mass Communication
Mechanical Engineering
Medical Transcription
Merchant Navy
Microbiology
Mining Engineering
Modeling
Motivational Speaker
Music
Nursing
Nutrition & Dietetics
Paramedical Services
Pilots
Plastic Technology
Public Relations
Physiotherapy
Retail
Sericulture
SPA & Massage Therapist
Sports Coaching
Stock brokers & Investment Analyst
Teaching
Telemarketing
Textile Engineering
Travel & Tourism
Veterinary Science
Yoga

Hope it does some good to you.
Take care,
Because I care!!!

Heat..11 months a year..?

2009-06-05T01:43:00.000-07:00

A person can be tortured to death but how much worser can it be when they are trailed to death due to heat? Chennai, a developed place with traffic on the road and minds, needs to get a shower before its too late. The weather here seems to be the same through out the day and when it gets cooler its time to crash on to the bed.
Kerala, The God's Own Country, goes through a beautifully designed climatic change which is appealing to one and all who has been there for a prolonged period to experience the 'not so hot' and 'not so cold' weather. The sweet smell of the wet mud, the smiles of the swaying flowers, the sun gradually going for a bath and the happiness of the drizziling sky are all worth a watch. It soothes our eyes and mind just by its climate and nature.
Climate and nature are corelated and the two extreme examples are Kerala and Chennai. With beautiful climatic variation Kerala is rich in nature and with the heat Chennai has turned into a barren land. When cool breeze gives freshness to Keralites people at Chennai needs an air contition. Its sounds offensive but it is the truth. People feeling it will say the same, for sure.

i am so really sorry.....

2009-03-26T21:45:00.000-07:00

hey friends....
i am really sorry for not posting any thing for a while.....mood swing is slowly getting back into my nerves....i am even more sorry for not reading any of your post.....and i am really missing it.....i will start soon after i get into my path....just out of focus and out of mind.....i am really scared too....so i really need some time.....some time i can spend with my self....alone....deep in thoughts.....in my world.....
hope you all are doing great.....
keep writing....
god bless.....
buh bye for a while more.....

IPL 20 TWENTY

2009-03-21T02:51:00.000-07:00

In this scenario when religious and regional riots prevail to a humongous extend, i think, IPL 20 twenty can create an impact. Where people of different religion and region abstain themselves from mingling with each others, IPL can be an example for unity.
20 twenty introducer might have had an isosceles idea of pooling in money but its great to have an impression done on the youth(even though some already have that impression on themselves) that oneness will 'happen' if they 'want' it to happen. For an orthodox its hard to digest to watch people hold their hands but for a youth of today and tomorrow 'humanism' matters up to the other corner so its easy to touch their inner heart...
I would be glad if they give full time security to the IPL players even if the days get postponed because it should occur in peace for our country's auspicious tomorrow. Finally, hats off to 20 twenty introducer.

Sleeping....

2009-03-16T02:16:00.000-07:00

I could not blink my eyes,

I did not want to miss a moment...

It was not the first time,

I kept looking...

My eyes did not push out tears,

It enjoyed its deed...

Sounds did not intrude,

For I took my ears no where except to 'breath'...

I gazed at you by my side,

Sleeping to the depth of depths...

Like a baby in his mothers arms,

You where safe in my eyes...

AVTAR '09

2009-03-05T01:23:00.000-08:00

"The New Avtar" will be the best descripition given to " AVTAR '09 ". The School of Communication" of G.R.D College of Science is looking forthto thhis Film Festival going to be held on 28th of march.
The event is decorated with creativity and potrayed in the form of a carnival. "Counting the stars seems easier than predicting the AVTAR '09, conducted by the unique talents- the VisComites," says the students.
AVTAR is organised and celebrated for the core of success that we can forsee the danglers of AVTAR "09 hanging on to the college's name.
AVTAR '08 turned out to be a successfull film festival and all hope AVTAR '09 to be twice as successfull as that.

This is a ahort article written by me. It is regarding Communication department's function at Dr. G.R.D College of science. It is basically a film festival..It is going to be held in our college premises. I kindly invite each one of you all to come for the function. For further informations, do comments. i will surely reply.

ChOiCe ? No?

2009-03-04T00:42:00.000-08:00

Does choice make any differrence to your life? In my life it never used to make much of a differrence because at the end of it I slept the choice...

I do not remember so many incidents where i had choice..So I am just jotting down two of them below:

The first instance was before I joined my high school. I had a choice then. It was either to opt science at a CBSC school or to opt commerce at a Government school. I chose the CBSC school. Since the time i joined there i had the least interest to study. I was ill most of the time. I was bored and wanted to get through my school life. So did I, after ruining last 2 years of my school life.
The second instance was when i was to join my college. I had to choose between a college at Coimbatore and a college at Kerala. I hated to continue my studies at Kerala because i knew that it would ruin my career and future. So i went for the college at Coimbatore. Now here am I at Coimbatore doing my B.Sc Visual Communication, which was(and is) my interest. Till this semester(4th semester) I had no thoughts of improving my knowledge or skills. I just wasted my time. I kept cursing my self for joining such a college where they never give us oppurtunity to come up.
Now I understood what ruined 2 years of my school life and 1 and a half years of my college life. It was 'me'. I had a choice. I picked what i felt 'the best'. I know that I was in an unclear path to my dream(journalism) but i did not work to find the clear path to reach it.
So I would like to conclude with some words for you....

If you dare to make a choice,

Be happy and positive over your choice..

If you dare to make a choice,

Work for what you want throught your choice..

If you dare to make a choice,

Live for your choice..

If you dare to make a choice,

Do not dare to change your choice...

Take care... Because I care....

AN EAZZY METHOD !!!

2009-03-02T01:43:00.000-08:00

This post is posted due to the exam trauma i just went through...
Well, nothing great..i am going to write on how to study faster using an easy method...the method goes this way..
Take your notebook or textbook from which you have to learn...open the page you want to learn...read it...then think about nothing other than "mug up"...hehe....
Just kidding..
What you have to do is;
1. write the topic on the page.
2. draw a circle around it.
3. read the paragraph from which you have to learn.
4. spot out facts.
5. wirte the facts around the topic, connecting it with arrows, or you can simply write it down as crisp points.
do this. as soon as you are done with this proceedure read through. and then start memorising the points.
if you have atleast 20% trust over me, try this method...it will seriously help you....
take care... and handel life well....
with love....

My gift for thee...

2009-02-26T08:45:00.000-08:00

When I walk through the empty streets,
Where autumn leaves creeps under my feet,
Nothing went through my devoted heart,
Except, what be my gift for thee...

When I sleep through the sweetest night,
Where dreams usually flow into my mind,
Nothing else have I dreamt,
Except, what be my gift for thee...

When I scribble in the fairy sheets,
Where my thoughts just fit in,
Nothing different I think to fill it,
Except, what be my gift for thee...

Now i know...
My gift for you is "a promise to be with thee till my last breath"..

will be away for a while...

2009-02-25T08:05:00.000-08:00

i have my internal exam going on...i never used to care about my internal exam but my teachers said that they will consider 10marks out of this in the internal assessment marks:(....
But i am enjoying my studies now...do not know why...!
Any how, see you all next week...God bless you all...
Tata...

smile:-)..

2009-02-21T22:53:00.000-08:00

When someone asks you, "when is it that you smiled the last time.?" you should be able to reply, "just a second ago."
Keep smiling.. Because you are worth it...

Do not reject!!

2009-02-20T09:30:00.000-08:00

"Sorry, we have no job for you... May be you should try something in a place where your mother tongue/skill can help you.." Would you like to say or hear this line when you imagine yourself in that place? You would plead for a chance. Please do not deny my words. Just give it a thought...!
I would feel ashamed of myself if somebody told, words like those, to me. I would have cursed that person. But, there is a point that, i would also try to improve my communication skill by joining some class or talking to someone, better than me, very often and go for a better job option.
What ever may be the situation, its not a good idea to say that to someone. He/she must be given a chance to improve and get back in some time or should be kept in the job so that we can give him/her a chance to improve by assigning him with small jobs, at first, where he has to deal with the skill and try to improve. I know that in todays world time and money means alot. I know that firms cant take chance by taking up people with low talents. I know that a firm cant risk anything for others. But what if that persons life depend on a chance you offer him? And what if he turns out to be a gem of your firm?
Do not reject people so easily. These people then improve themselves and go abroad to work for foreign countries becoming no-part of our nations prosperity. We loose two things at a time, our firms growth and our nations prosperity. Do not reject, please!!

...U 'n' I...

2009-02-19T01:47:00.000-08:00

i will walk through my way,
not through yours...
i thought i knew you,
but i was wrong...
You gave me hope,
Later, you turned away...
You sounded so great,
Somehow you turned around...
I am still smiling,
For the rest of the days...
My one hand hidden,
To keep from clapping...
I am forgiving,
For you are ignorant...
I am better than you,
Due to my patience...
I would not say it out,
Since i am wiser...
I would not react,
Because its useless...
I am happy,
For what i am!!!
And i pity,
For what you want!!!

This poem is dedicated to some people, who i would not like to reveal, who have the character as stated in the poem...
God bless you all...
p.s. i am back to the path of writing after a while.......i hope:D

2009-02-17T01:51:00.000-08:00

This is a new collage(but my sir said that its not a collage:D) done by me.....Well,its a bit girly, and it reflects my likes....did it just like that...do comment....
P.s. i did not come online for a long time...neither did i write anything worth posting....and im really sorry for not reading all of your posts.....will do it with in no time....

NO ONE !!!!!

2009-02-04T03:38:00.000-08:00

Look into my eyes

Please see my pain...

I have no one,

To feel my heart...

And to read my sorrows...

Every one is so strange,

Every one is so away....

Touch my heart

Please feel my pain...

Every one is running away,

So as to keep my life away from theirs....

Its so painfull....

Its so visible...

But no one is near me...

To see or feel,

what i am going through...

A cOlLaGe By Me....

2009-01-27T01:26:00.000-08:00

This is something i tried to do..... It reflects only a single precious idea..... "Loneliness"....

???

2009-01-26T08:29:00.000-08:00

Hi.... How are you doing.? Oh no! I did not ask 'you'. I asked my 'world'. What happen? No, i am not insane. I am perfectly alright. Just give me some time and i will explain all what happen to me..
I happen to open a personal diary of mine to write something to post in this blog. Well, I wrote nothing other than:
" Describe World in three words.
*Depends on eyes(answer)* "
After writing the above, this thought of asking World how she is doing, came into my mind.. I just tried to realize that she has a heart too.
Think about her. Atleast because she is bearing you....
Now, I guess, you understood that i am not insane even though i might turn into one sometime later..
Take care...

A tHoUgHt ThAt rAn tHrOuGh Me....

2009-01-22T06:59:00.000-08:00

You will need a special nerve to cry...But make sure that you do not have a whole lot of special nerves in yourself...
(If you did not understand my friend) i mean, do not keep crying because you will end up making your life as bad as you ever imagined...!
TAKE CARE....:-)

HiM aNd I....

2009-01-21T08:52:00.000-08:00

I rarely speak with love...
Still, he gives me a smile...
I rarely sit beside him...
Still, he takes me everywhere...
I slap him with words...
Still, he never cursed me...
I never let him sleep happy...
Still, he wakes me up with surprises...

That is my father...
He gave me a kiss today...

tHe TrUtH i BeLiEvE iN..

2009-01-20T06:44:00.001-08:00

Alone you took the first glance of the world...
Alone you chose the path to walk in...
Alone you walk through the path...
Alone you leave the world...
Don't ado about being alone today...
There will be atleast one in your life time...
To realise your heart beat...

He.....

2009-01-13T07:50:00.000-08:00

His smile is a sign of innocance...
He runs around carelessly...
He looks into our eyes with hope...
His dreams are adventurous...
His words are endless...
He holds our hands tightly...
His fear limitless...
Later,
He will leave everything he had...
will become more or less like us...
He is a kid...
He will be destroyed tomorrow...

wHo hAtEs iT???

2009-01-09T01:07:00.001-08:00

Its said that one who do not enjoy their company will never enjoy the time with their companions. Acording to me, its totally true.
Every one loves companionship, but every ones heart longs for some time they can spend with themselves. There would be none who would hate their own company. Even if they do hate it, atleast in one point of life they must have longed for a moment alone. Because there will be wounds or feelings that can be healed or made up with no one elses help. The moments alone is the only time they get some time to think about themselves. Thats the most apt time to decide what to do in life, with the choice they have, with what they feel and with the memories they have to leave behind.
Spend atleast an hour with yourself and, trust me, you wil find changes in every aspect of your life. Do not forget to enjoy with your companions as well because tomorrow they might leave because of your extreme passion for lonelyness.

..LiFe..

2009-01-08T09:30:00.000-08:00

Look around with a smile.. Accept things the way it comes.. Take both the sides of it as it comes.. Kick out the negatives.. Take along the positives.. Leave alone the tears.. Pick the lessons.. Beware of same mistakes.. Make brand new mistakes.. Learn the lessons from it.. Live the best.. Thats what life is all about.. And thats the way life goes on..

A book i read...Five Point Someone...

2009-01-07T00:31:00.000-08:00

"Five Point Someone" is written by Chetan bhagat. Infact, this is his first best selling book(from 2004 to 2007 i guess). This book depicts "what not to do in IIT".This story is about 3 boys who joined for Mechanical Engineering at IIT after a great battle with books.
Hari is the one who is narrating the story. He finds two boys, who were worth being his friend, while getting ragged by his seniors during the first days of his hostel life. Ryan has got his own style of dealing stuffs. He is cool and has a build figure. He has an idea of enjoying his college life, but Alok was strictly against that. He wanted to consentrate in his studies to gain a good job and to help his family to get over poverty. Hari did not have his own style or ways of doing things. Ultimately both Alok and Hari started following Ryans words and fell into many problems and some fun filled days. This is what the whole book is about.
I picked up this book because I have heard alot about it. I would recomment this book because every one will enjoy it, Im sure. Chetan bhagats "three mistakes of my life" and "One Night @ the Call Canter" also seems to be good. truely saying Five Point some one is worth reading. I guess the rest of his books will be the same!!

..fRiEnD..GoD..

2009-01-06T10:27:00.000-08:00

I had a wrong perception about friends... I thought they would hold my hand through out my life... I thought that they would support me and stand with me when I am in trouble...
Now I understand that they are human beings like me... They have to consider twice when the thought of helping a friend pops up... They have to see if supporting a friend could hurt themselves or no... They have to see if some one will stand against them or no... They have to take care of their reputation...
Well, I do not think I can blame them because to an extreme, I think, even I do the same...
I have heard: "be the change you want to see in the world" (Mahathma Gandhi said that)... As of now, I haven't changed even a bit even after being left alone a few times... But I hope I can change my attitude some day...
P.S. If I ever happen to see any friend who would never ever let go of a person, I know that it would be GOD himself... Every body else will drop us at some point of life...

She lost her Wings.......

2009-01-05T02:14:00.000-08:00

She lost her wings,
It's he tore it away...
This day, she looked at me,
I looked away...
I thought about euthenasia,
Because she suffred alot...
She lost her wings,
And cried helplessly...
A thought of killing him came,
For the world...
She lost her wings,
Tomorrow it might be "mine"..

2009-01-04T07:07:00.000-08:00

When you are pierced with pain on your heart,its possible for you to walk back to life...
But, there will always be a missing part...
Thats the "real YOU"...

Hope...

2008-12-31T00:53:00.000-08:00

This keeps my life going......"hope"

I saw a path in 'the invisibility'...

And pushed myself along it...

I wonder how it happen,

Because i ultimately reached,

In the right path called "life"...

The path was then named,

By me as "hope"...

MOTHER....

2008-12-18T01:31:00.000-08:00

She would always own the nine months of our journey into life. Why not leave her the credit for bearing us in her womb? She fed us from her. We breath from what she owned. We were in her when we were not even inches. We were "her"... Yet we say that our life is totally ours. I think, we will never own it because the first, tough, half was in her. Its up to our sense to decide what to tell our parents regarding our life. But according to me we should not arouse any queries because of the first nine months of our life. We owe her alot, atleast because we were a part of her once upon a time!!

By His Side...

2008-12-15T20:46:00.000-08:00

We walked hand in hand,
Looking at the never ending shops,
All confused on what to buy...
My mind held me from buying any thing,
Because more than anything i wanted,
His hand in mine and to walk by his side...
I don't know what was in his thought,
Because i can not read minds...
But I surely knew that,
he did enjoy the moment,
By the way he held my hand...
So soft and relectant to let go...

I can't bear it...

2008-12-14T01:28:00.000-08:00

I just missed you yesturday,
That my heart began to weep,
Forgetting to beat a beat.
I looked back and front,
Insearch of you,my sweet heart,
Thankfully dreams took me to you...
Even if it is a busy street,
I can't bear to stay away from you...

AnGeL....

2008-12-11T23:37:00.000-08:00

You walked into my life, one day, to hold my hands,

With no promises to stay for ever,

But with a promise to stay as far as you could...

When i looked back into my life after a while,

I found you coloured in gold,

Shining at my side all the while...

I was then scared of looking forward,

Because i couldnt bear to not you see again,

But days later i still found you shining by my side...

Today I see you shine like never before,

Now you are shining infront of my eyes...

You are my angel,forever...\

THIS IS DEDICATED TO MY BEST FRIEND SHERIN....SHES BEEN WITH ME.....SHE IS WITH ME!!!AND SHE WILL HOLD ON AS FAR AS SHE CAN!!!!I TRUST HER!!!

Better Half !!

2008-12-08T20:50:00.000-08:00

She walked in silently and asked me, "what should we do when we have a better half?". I just said "this one" and just smiled wholeheartedly. She blinked as if her mind captured nothing. Then i said,"accept the person the way he is,with a smile!". She thought about it then.

We can never change our lives. Sometimes somethings come in uninvited were we have to get along with a smile(the only way). What would we feel when someone tries to change us for their convenience? I bet, we will get irritated. Its the same with them!

Keep your hands off from changing them. Be with them how ever they are. Be a part of them. Hold their hands when they need it. Leave it when they can stand without your help. Have an affection untouched even if she has 2 bad things, out of 3, you don't like. The 1 out of 3 is equal to 99% of good things. So you don't need any other reason to love them and to be beside them. Trust me!

Gleaming light....

2008-11-28T07:34:00.000-08:00

A lass in the darkness,

Lost heart all alone.

She gazed into the darkness,

fearfully guessing the right way.

Chanting prayers for the best,

In a gleaming light,

She saw a loving hand,

That lead into love.

UNTOUCHED....I read this one.....

2008-11-21T19:35:00.000-08:00

Anna Campbell's Untouched is a story about Mrs. Paget who, just after weeks from her husbands death, had to stay into an isolated house as a whore... There a person named Lord Sheene was imprisoned because of mental illness.... She understands that he has no mental illness.....At first he did not believe her when she said that she was not a whore..... Gradually he starts to believe her and protects her.... They loved each other passionately from then... She surrendered her body to him because she knew that a life with him was impossible and that she could atleast keep him in her memories...
He later helps her escape from that isolated place.... Within a period of 6 months she comes back to his rescue.... Ather then their love lived like flame.....
Good book.... If you cant bear romantic ideas then may be you shouldnt give it a try.... But i liked it....

P.S.I LOVE YOU....a book i read!!!

2008-11-21T00:35:00.000-08:00

Cecelia ahern's "P.S.I love you" ultimately made me cry.... It's the story about a women named Holly who lived her life after her loving husband's death... His death left her in between no where!! One fine day,she finds a list of things, that she had to do every month, her husband posted to her adress before death.... She then leads her life the way he wanted her to live.... Beautiful story.... A must read book.... It wil tear you into painfull thoughts.... But it gives you a hope as well.... GIVE IT A TRY....

20 miles away from my home...

2008-11-20T22:29:00.000-08:00

A house that i passed by during my scool days...Every morning it looked lonely...I wonder who lived there or if any body did??

The house, right in between two huge trees, reflected beauty...It gave a pleasant gaze...Autumn leaves withered from the gate, along the path, until the door step...Im sure I never saw anyone out at the midst of the compound...There was no days I missed to peep atleast ones...The gate smiled and shone at me, inviting me to step in, but I never dared to...Was that lonely looking house really lonely??

Im not sure if any body even bothered about that house, because i never heard any one talk about it....But for me, that house 20 miles away from my home, really lives lonely....

Im Scared.....

2008-11-20T21:58:00.000-08:00

We live in the same world...Now you may be wondering why is the title that way whne we live in the same world...The diofference is that I mostly see women psychos around me.....Oh!Thats a word "I" call men who brutally rape haras and kill women!!!!

Now, i guess you understood what my title means....

When i look around,

My hands shiver...

Thoughts shake me,

And fear takes me....

Im scared every second,

Of "How will I live?"...

It pains but I have no choice...

Otherthan, "bear it"...

A knief I look at,

Held in my hand...

Gives me strength,but,

Im scared of "How long?"...

Questions.?

2008-10-30T01:00:00.000-07:00

On 29th of october '08 a news channel captured my attention by displaying 3 perpetual stories..
One goes like this:
A 7 year old girl tragically escapes from some political party members before being the victim of sexual abuse.
Second one was:
A 7 year old boy was suffocated to death after homosexual abuse by an older man.
The last one was:
A second standard kid was abused by her school principal..
A single day brought me to the reality of 3 stories in a series. Im sure that in every single day there will be many such abuses without a third persons knowledge leading them to death prostitution or something else.. It might be their own friends, guardians, kidnappers or any body else whose between them cannot be trust worthy.
How can all these be controlled? Can we hang all the reason's to death? Can we speak to the reason's and change their mind? Can we dinne out the core reason and destroy it?
Gosh! All my posts have questions towards the end. I know that its either because there are no answers to all this or because Im ignorant of it..
LETS WAIT AND WATCH.?

Is It His Mistake..?

2008-10-23T04:48:00.000-07:00

"Will she accept him with a brother like this?".I am quite sure,she needs a nerve to do it.. Are you confused about what I am confessing? Ok! Here it goes..
Mr.(named for now and forever) has a brother 3years younger to him. Sweet and blessed with physical health but God withdrew a bit by denying him mental health.. Yes,a mentally challenged boy. Born like any others due to someone's mistake.. He has to live.. He is no thing to be thrown into a bin.. He is a life.. He has to live..
Mr. does not know when to talk about his brother(while getting a marriage proposal)at the beginning, which might destroy his marriage or towards the end, which will ultimately name him as a betrayer.. He is hurt.. He needs someone to support him.. The someone should be his life partner who can support him for his brother, who can consider his brother one amoung them, who can love his brother the way he does..
Is it Mr.'s fault? Is it his brother's fault? Is it their parents fault? Is it their fate's fault? Whose fault is it? God knows.. God alone knows the answer to these unanswered questions..

IN YOUR ARMS..

2008-10-18T02:20:00.000-07:00

Look at me once..
Let me feel your eyes..
For its heaven,
I see in it..

I see no flowers,
When you smile..
For it shows me sky
Living for stars..

Where does time go
When i long for your hug
For i may not live
If not in ur arms..

YOU...

2008-10-14T06:57:00.001-07:00

You don't know how special you are..
My life so nice and new..
My smile so deep and lovely..
Because you walked into my dreams..
Making it so beautiful..
You became the magic of my life..

You don't know how special you are..

Do not forget...

2008-10-11T08:37:00.001-07:00

Love is pure.. None is untouched by this purity like wind.. For success in such a pure feeling, boys and girls have few points to remember.. Here it goes...

For boys:
Girls are said to be fragile.. Well,its not always true.. But never argue with her over that because she wil either end up crying or arguing.. Hmm..
Whatever kind she may be, she just needs some:
¤care
¤understanding (realise her from the depth of her heart.. A line,"i understand you" make her breath again.. Trust me.)
¤respect (respect her as a daughter,a sibling,a woman,a wife and a mother.)
¤devotion
¤validation (give her some value in your life.)
¤reassurance (tell her that you love her very often.)

For girls:
Boys are no joke.. You either accept them or just go to hell.. They never give up their stand.. But just make sure that you do somethings like:
¤trust
¤accept (accept him the way he is, but you surely can change him with your pure love at some point of life..)
¤appreciate (a line,"you have done your part well" might give him wings.)
¤admire
¤approve
¤encourage (do it everytime he wants to do some thing.)

Seems easy.? Then go for it.. I bet he/she will love the new you..

HIS EYES WERE BURRIED.....

2008-09-19T05:18:00.000-07:00

It was my unknown mistake.....I asked him about his wife and child.....He blankly said that his child was no more due to heart failure....Eyes burried in his mobile, he spoke or looked at me nomore...I felt sorry at ones....I looked around to see if someone was around...But none were at my rescue:(....
My mind ran around searching for topics to speak about but suddenly there was no more topics existed....It seemed like he was concentrating on his mobile but i knew that he was just pretending...
I stayed silent for "sometime".............
When I really wanted someone to be by my side there was none but after that "sometime" all the others at office came in...
Im happy that I managed to keep the silence...

a book i read...."TRUST ME..."

2008-09-09T21:20:00.000-07:00

"Trust me" by Rajashree.....

A story depicting the life of a girl namedParvathy(Paro) leading her life through the difficult path and succeeding in one pure feeling called "True Love"....
I lived Paro's life while i read the book(I did!!)...I would also say that Rajashree succeeded in her attempt of reflecting the exact city life using the right words and a great deal of jokes..
Great book to be read..Trust me....hahaha!!!

2008-09-09T21:16:00.000-07:00

"OpEn yOuR HeArT aNd lIsTeN To WhAt yOuR DrEaMs tElL YoU!!!!"
i love this quote.....if you asked me why, i would have said "BeCaUsE I aIm fOr My DrEaMs To CoMe TrUe..."

I just wrote it as my heart spoke..Just read through....And I dont have a title for it:)....

2008-09-09T20:59:00.000-07:00

All I do is smile...

When some one hurts me as well...

It's not because I don't feel it...

It's because you hate tears in my eyes!!

FOR OR AGAINST??

2008-08-13T03:04:00.000-07:00

Have you ever thought about Sex trade??? Oh! Did that word just give you a shock?? If it did, then it's because your parents brought you up telling that Sex trade is a bad deed and entering your adolescence you hear a lot about sex trade, that you forget to know what is behind it. Let me take you through some of the realities.
Exploitation, trafficking, acute poverty, willingness, family dispute, misguidance, tradition and kidnapping....Aren't these reasons enough for a lady living with dignity to lose her virginity?? If you ask me, I would say "YES" because my heart says so!!
In Calcutta (Sonagachi) and in many other places there are areas called "Red light areas" where there are adults into sex work and children born into brothels. The sight of women calling male to go with them desperately and innocent children sitting in pavements, who is going to be forced into the same deed their mother is involved in, is so painful that you might feel like tearing your hearts into pieces (I have never been there but I have seen it in a movie, which ultimately brought tears from my wide open my eyes).
Getting back to facts, either poverty stricken family sell their daughters to earn their living or women who enter contract labor often leads them to get raped and finally into prostitution. In places, women who has to give dowry and so to earn it they get into sex-work. In other places traffickers are strong enough that the parents are forced to send their daughters into trade under compulsion who may not even be 16years old. In Calcutta alone there are 60,000 and more sex-workers among which many of them are under 16. Imagine how many of them are round the globe!! Oh, don't mind!! It's hard...
You might be unaware about the fact that there are "types" of prostitutes. A section of prostitutes work in different locations and they are called "flying-sex-worker". There are "part-time workers" who after that are with their family or go for other works just to increase their family income. "Full-time workers consider red light areas as their own because they are there for days long. Some other groups enter into this profession through brothel based sex work (house where men visit prostitutes).
There is a different section of people who are not prostitutes but do deeds of such kind. They might be married or un-married studying or working at places away from their husband or family and spending nights with men they like. This is mainly money based and are well known among people now-a-days.
There is same degree of secrecy and shame associated with their profession and guts, ones took up the profession, reaches the peak. Prostitution is a profession where Non-governmental officers gave confidence to expand their scope of workspace in certain places. With support of this kind they are growing world wide.
We, the younger generation, should decide whether to support or to pull this whole system down!! It’s your turn to voice. So what do you say, "For or Against"????

2008-08-08T07:50:00.000-07:00

"MY HIGHWAY AND THE REALITY"

I was travel through the highway, my life, at a very fast pace. A person normally travels without bothering about who or what is around him. I'm always against that.

I,in my journey, during the first few hours, happen to see someone sitting on the footpath and begging. With pity at my door step i walked towards the person,whom i would say was 'unfortunate', searching for some coins. Suddenly i felt my eyes control my hands because of the view of a healthy man sitting, begging with his voice for money and another child of his walking around begging with innocence for money. He was guilty of two acts according to me. Firstly for not working with his healthy body and secondly for promoting the child to beg. With no sort of forgiveness i returned to my highway feeling the scene hard to digest.

In my journey the next thing i had to do was search for a trash so that i could dump the waste I had with me. This search took my eyes to places full of dirt, plastics, excreta and chemicals, all untreated. But finally i found a bin and rushed, towards it with my nose angrily not letting me to breath due to the pollution. I was in a hurry to rush back to the highway so i just bend a little forward to throw and my eyes betrayed me and tears started to flow. Nose became reluctant to breath. "I SAW A BABY GIRL LIE AND CRY IN IT". Yes, i dint believe my eyes at first. But gradually i realised that i had to do something. I called up the cops. They came, questioned me, took my address telling me that i might have to go to the station if necessary, and took the baby as well saying that they will have to keep the 'matter' with them and not a 'new born'. Visualising the heartless parents and cops of this literate world, i walked with an absent mind towards my highway and sped towards nowhere.

Suddenly God held my hand and i held the break. It was a kid in front of me... I got out of my highway, held his hand and approached an arguing couple. They were so deep in their argument that they dint notice me walk towards them with the kid. I asked them calmly if it was their kid. One among them said yes and they got involved in their fight like before. I encouraged myself to ask another question and while I was raising the voice from deep within me some papers which had "divorce" written on it caught my attention. My eyes was starting to betray me as usual but I beheld it from doing so and walked towards the other side of the footpath and knelt down facing the kid. His eyes said ,"HELP ME!!" but with helpless eyes i gave him a kiss on his sweet chin and walked away requesting God to be with him....

I hurried to my car and sped so that I would notice no one but what caught my eyes was blood, corpse and similar brutal things... I got scared and shot of a scream! And.....I woke up leaving my dreams alone. The only thing that flashed in my mind was "This is reality....Accept it!!!".

A HEARTLY THANKYOU !!

2008-02-29T22:21:00.000-08:00

Today's world is something that amazes everyone who knows about the earlier days. As far as ones mothers say, their days were totally different from today! And this is the main reason for any heart to get amazed.

When you were young you had your mothers breast in your mouth so that you could be fed for you to survive.. When you became a youngster you need a cigerette in your mouth which addon style and which will gradually help you get out of life.. Well, your parents are going to be boundlessly happy for you when you pave the way to kill yourself by smoking. Since they took good care of you,when you were young, this should be the best gift you give them.. Trust me!

Oh, you dont get kicked effect from a coffee! So you really need to get drunk! Life is sickening and boring and since you want to make it awesome and full of fun you should get drunk from head to toe and do all the sensible things! You have to get into your sense after getting drunk and get into the world of good stuffs! Huh! I really appreciate people who do all sort of stuffs like this. Getting addicted to it is too good and desperately waiting for the next sip is even more awesome!

Finally i would like to thank each one of you in today's generation to help decrease the population and would be glad if you teach your younger ones the same so that htey follow the very same beautiful path!!

:-)

WHAT NEXT !!!

2008-01-09T03:29:00.000-08:00

Who is the only one who has problems? You? Me? She? No! Its everyone.. Not even one in this world are devoid of pain! Poverty, family problems, illness, and many more are their problems!

Let me tell you that life has two sides, one side reflects happiness and the other reflects problems and sorrows! And one of these sides may not stay in two of the persons life at a time! Keep tossing because you never know what side is waiting for you!

One part of the people in this world may not see life possessing two sides. But they think that life is mould out of yourself and your mind! Either life makes a fool out of you or you make a fool out of your life. People who are made a fool out of their life always remains sad because their life controls them whereas people who make a fool out of their life enjoy more because they have a strong control over their life.

Life is no sorrow my dear friends! Its all fun when you make it so and the beginning and ending always depends upon no one rather than you!

LIVE LIFE! ENJOY LIFE! BECAUSE YOU NEVER KNOW WHATS NEXT!

IS IT ONLY GIRLS???

2007-11-22T01:12:00.000-08:00

Are girls the reason for all sexual related deeds? I know this question will probably tickle your veins but this is what every one is saying! dumping the blame for their own exploitation over girls could be the weirdest thing a human could do!

Girls are of three types which are under groups that undergo sex related deeds. First are girls who are desperate, second are those who do it unknowingly and the third are the ones who are simply forced to do so. But the people around them blame girls as a reason for such deeds for no reason.

Reasons may be enough available, but finding out reason is types of groups of girls. They are so desperate to get mans warmth that even if one true love ends the other true love's birth occurs within no time only for the same warmth she had got from her ex-true lover! The main things that inspires a girl is media and western culture as far as i know. The thought that virginity is nothing as long as you have a love vibrates their hearts!

Love is something that no one can define....its something so pure that pushes out a sign of purity called trust. This trust which is so pure is the fact that the so called 'ture lover' use to trap innocent girls. Girls being so delicate at heart will give her heart and soul to the guys finally falling into the deep pit of provocation and seduction. They, in the name of love, lose theie virginity unknowing about the new thing that follows...they gradually find themsleves tagged as sluts or find themselves in an extra-special pronographic video! This even happens to married women! Trust gives them a pethetic future...

Trust need not be there in places where girls are pushed to hell! I simply meant that it is not absolutely neccessary to win a girls trust to utilize her. Some manly stength is totally enough to force her to do things shes not willing to do. Finally the girl leaves the world out of shame ans awful fame...

Now the total blame can't be put over girls because most of them are unaware! But,note it, awareness is not only the neccessary equipment!!

Beware so that you stay a virgin!!!

MY DREAM....

2007-11-14T03:44:00.000-08:00

Its only one so beautiful...
It pulls me into wonder...
So true and will, one day, be fruitful...
And it makes my heart ponder....

Today might be early...
But tomorrow will be too late!!
I may think about it bearly...
And so I may name it as unlucky fate...

Humming the song I love the most,
Willingly I walked over the autumn leaves...
Moon so bright making my mind frost...
It will hold my hand until my life lives...

I dreamt about my dreams days ago...
I saw it become a reality that will stay...
It gave me hopes for life's tomorrow to go...
For the dream I saw I will never go away...

-Never dies my dream....